Do you ever feel like seasons in life are nothing but a never-ending cascade of disappointment?

Yeah? Me too.

This past year I was dating a guy who I thought was THE guy. We were steadily making plans to get engaged in the near future. Then I moved to New York for work in the spring.

He broke up with me.

I had previously never been broken up with. It felt like a complete slap in the face. This was the man who I was so certain I would spend the rest of my life with. Not only did it hurt to be rejected by someone I cared so deeply for, what also cut deep was the intense disappointment that came with it. The life plans I was so certain of, the security of being loved by someone…gone.

Disappointment.

This isn’t something that’s just experienced in relationships. Disappointments can present themselves in many facets of our lives. Like when we get rejected by Universities, ministry opportunities, or being looked over for advancements in our career.

You know what the craziest and truthfully most terrifying thing is about disappointment, it’s the power it has to make me believe that I am somehow deserving of it.

I am truly unworthy of anything good. So how could expect anything less than for something not to work out?

It scares me how when disappointing circumstances occur in my life, how quickly I believe the lie that I deserve to be let down because ultimately, I do not believe I deserve anything good.

LIES. Lies straight from the enemy my friends!

Through the Grace of God, I am able to know what is ultimately true. That I am good. That I am worthy. That I am supremely loveable and deserving of good things.

I believe the enemy loves to use this tactic. When we feel like we are unworthy, or ashamed, it’s the perfect recipe for us to become bitter or eventually turn our back on Him completely.

I think the ultimate lesson in every disappointment is that no matter what happens God is in control! Perhaps a disappointment was really Your Father saving you from something that wasn’t His highest and best will for you.

I urge you all to stay rooted in prayer. It’s the only way to combat the lies of the enemy and to trust that every detail of your life is in Your Father’s hand.

I also want you to know this. Just because you’ve been continuously disappointed in life does not mean that God does not love you, has forgotten you, or does not have the perfect plan for your life.

Let the great let downs in your life be the moments you run back to Him.